Today was interesting. I pretended to be a medical student. Haha.. Sneaked into IMU. Swarna wanted to show me around her campus. Thankfully the guard didn't ask for ID cards because obviously I didn't have one. So we just strolled in with me trying to blend in. Hehe..

Well, we definitely stood out because we wearing non-formal clothes. Goshh.. Their dress code is so strict. Everyday formal wear. I think if I wasn't allowed to wear jeans to college it would like a death sentence. It was weird seeing all the guys in long-sleeve shirts and ties going for lectures! Anyway, I explored every floor of the building. They have escalators there BUT noooooo it's not operated. Still have to walk up and down. *rolling eyes* Saw their auditorium, library, discussion rooms etc... I also saw the human models they practice on too. Hehe.. Well, the whole place still felt like a shopping mall to me. It was suppose to be actually. But then they turned it into a university.

Before that we went to my university first. I nearly showed her the wrong way. Haha.. Haven't been there in so long. Drove around my campus and I showed her every building. Nothing much because we didn't get down from the car. Wanted to show her the way there only. So that she can familiarize herself with the road in order to pick me up next time! *teehee* You see, IMU and UCSI are not that far in distance. This is what I call FATE! Am I not right? Hehe..

Had a nice time adventuring around today isn't? Of course, as usual Malaysian road signs are useless. The put the sign where you're suppose to turn AFTER the turning or just right in front of it! Sighh.. I really pity the tourists and foreigners who come to our country for holidays. Our sign boards are just so screwed up.

After venturing around, we eventually went back to PJ and had tea in Teapot Cafe. Sat and talked and talked. About life, love, studies, etc.. About everything under the sun! Hehe.. Had so much of catching up to do, since we had not seen each other for very long. Known her for more than 6 six years now. That's LONG! Haha..

I had a wonderful time today :)

Oh, I'm saying this officially in my blog, the day the sky turns green that's the day I agree to drive! Nyahahaha.. *winks*

My ankle hurts again. Arrghhh!! Noooooooooooooooooooo.. Sigh..

I don't know why, but it started to hurt again today. Okay, rewinding back, about 2 months ago I fell off the stairs and sprained my ankle really badly. At that time, I thought I had broken my whole foot. The pain was excruciating. I spent half an hour on the floor crying. *sniff sniff* So for 2 weeks, I couldn't walk at all. Felt so helpless and incompetent. After that, I spent kinda long learning to walk again. That means wearing the oh-so-uncomfortable ankle brace and ankle guard. Had to suffer for a few weeks till the pain was gone. The worst part of it was the visits to the chinese physiotherapist! 3 times a week! The way he rubbed and pulled and stretched my ankle was so scary and painful. However, I was the only one who couldn't stand the pain so naturally I srceamed and screamed. Embarrassing of course, because his other patients who were elderly people all came out without even making a sound. *shy* Hehe..

So yeah, I had to lay off wearing heels for quite a while. Only now, I slowly started wearing heels again. But, sighh.. It's beginning to hurt again.
I don't know why=( Oh please pray for me.

I'm being forced to wear my ankle guard again. *double sigh*
That means no wearing heels for now. *sob sob*

BUT that gives me a very good reason to go out and get new flats. Hehe.. Now there's my silver lining.. *grins*

Finally, today I got to meet up with someone whom I've not seen in a long time. Actually, we've plan to meet up many MANY times already but it just never happened. Because of.... Okay, I shall not start it again. Haha..

Anyway, somebody was suppose to pick me up at 12noon. But as usual, that somebody woke up LATE! I'm already used to it. Sigh.. Well, that somebody also got lost AGAIN trying to find my house. So I had to meet that somebody in Mcdonalds. We only reached our destination at around 2 something.

Had lunch and talked and talked and talked and talked..... So much to catch up on and so little time. Hehe.. When it was time to pay, the normal thing started about who's gonna pay. Sigh.. The waiter would have thought we were both mad. Shoving and pushing money around each other. Well, I lost this round. So I'm paying the next time!! Stop paying for everything okay. Haih..

Went to buy our movie tickets next. Decided to watch Ice Age 2. I got to pay this time=)
I manage to take out my money quicker. Nyahaha.. =p

We still had a lot of time to kill till the movie started and since the bowling alley was just across the cinema, we decided to go bowling. Haha.. I don't know what possessed us to do that, but yeah we did. We got the shoes and the ball and were ready to bowl. And they just had to give us the lane that was right in the middle of the other bowlers. It was so embarrassing! The people around us looked that they were born to bowl. Every throw was a strike. We on the other hand were... Haha.. Throwing gutter balls most of the time? Hehe.. But it was fun. I think we made the most noise as well, laughing at ourselves plus screaming at the ball. Oh I just don't understand why the ball can't go straight! By the time it nearly reaches the pins, it takes this immediate turn to the gutter. Anyway I lost the game. You beat me by a few pins only. =p

Guess what we did next? We went to play Daytona. Even funnier. Haha.. I think the last time I played was in Sunway Pyramid with the guys. Thank God the arcade wasn't crowded. So we played and I WON! Just admit that I'm better! Nyahahaha.. ;)

After grabbing a float in A&W and reminiscing about our past, it was time for the movie. The cinema was freaking cold. I really felt as if I was in the ice age. The movie was really funny. The squirrel with the acorn was so cute. Hehe..

Alas, it was time to go home after that. Had a really great time with you today! As I always do. Seeing you next week again so you don't have to miss me so much. *teehee*

P/S: Thanks for lunch.. :) *huggies*

I've spent two days in a row in 1-Utama. Haha.. My second home!

Well, I've not been there in a while. And thats the TRUTH! I haven't gone shopping for ages. *gasp* Which is a record, because shopping and my name used to be synonymous. Hehe..

This time round also I DID NOT go shopping. I repeat again. I DID NOT go shopping. I did not buy anything. Shocking but true. Nyahaha.. So yups, maybe my shopaholic-ness has been cured? Hehe..

Actually I did buy something, books! Oh glorious books. Stocked up on my chic lit. Buying books isn't considered shopping though. Not for me. *winks*

Oh and I went for a movie marathon as well. Watched, 'The Sentinel' and 'The Producers' yesterday. Today I watched 'She's the Man'.

'The Sentinel' is your normal action-packed movie about the Secret Service and a plan to assassinate the President. Kim Basinger is still as gorgeous as ever. Exciting movie, but predictable. 'The Producers' was another story. Haha.. It was a musical thingy. Funny, stupid, lame - you name it. Hehe.. But then, it was good for laughs. But I wouldn't watch it twice though. 'She's the Man' was the typical chic flick. Nice movie. Oh, Channing Tatum is seriously hot! *smiles*

On the not so bright side, Uni is starting again. Really soon. Next week to be exact. =(

I don't want to go back. Sigh.. I really don't want to go back. I love what I'm doing now. But then, I guess at some point I have to go back to reality. My 2 months break has been phenomenal. No words to describe. The best time I've had. Actually it was the satisfaction I got out of it.

I still don't want to go back. Oh God help me..

Someone please motivate and inspire me. Haha.. I know it's lame. =p

Let me share with you a new catch phrase I learnt during the week.

"Why can't studying be as exciting as looking as hot guys!". Hahahahahahaha.. I nearly died of laughter when I saw this. To the person who wrote this, don't sue me for plagiarism. I'm just sharing what you told me. Remember, sharing is caring(my favourite phrase!). Bwahahaha *winks*

Pool. Haha.. Just played it again in the uth house. It's fun playing but I'm not good at it. Proven that I can't aim properly. Hehe.. Even my friends said that thank goodness I'm not an architect, cause the whole building will collapse. Angles, positions so not for me. Haha.. Oh well, that's why I'm studying music. Back to the subject, that night had a game of 2 on 2. My partner was Kevin, against Jess and Emm. We won the first game, thanks to the purple dinosaur(inside joke=p).

The second game we lost, thanks to me for shooting in the black ball. Hehe.. Pool is complicated. The shots, the blocks. Booking the holes? I still don't understand pool jargon. Slice the ball? I tried to do that, but then.... You know.. Estimating how hard to hit the ball, is still a mystery to me. Where to hit it, is even a deeper enigma. Haha.. When we came to the third game, it was a game of the flying white ball. Turn after turn, the flying white ball syndrome kept on passing around. At every shot, the white ball just kept flying off the pool table. Hehe.. So dangerous, nearly caused some casualties in the midst of it. =p

Foosball. Aahhh.. This game is not so bad. It's even more fun playing this. Cause I don't suck so much in this. *winks* Hehe.. Except when they make the sticks go 360 degrees and the ball starts flying. Jumping around and screaming are all a part of it. That's what makes it fun. I'm an expert in screaming. Haha.. How fast your reflexes are determines the winner of the game.

Oh well, maybe one day I'll be able to be a pro in pool and foosball! Yeah right. The day pigs can fly, that's the day it'll happen. *grins*

Wong Kok, Leisure Mall [this is was soo long ago..]

me taking you..

you taking me.. =p

the apartment in Cameron Highlands.. [SC Retreat]

planet shakers with yinyee.. [Sunway Pyramid]

our most recent picture.. so happy you came :) [worship rally, Grace PJ]

You see, I didn't post up the embarrassing pictures! Haha.. Wanted to scare you only. Don't dare me anymore. You know I'll do it. Hehehe.. Yups, missing you so muchh too!! All your fault, always FFK me. Okay I'll stop with that, or not we'll go on forever about it. We've called a truce already. Next semester will be the same again, hopefully. I'll be back=)

Gonna see you soon anyway. Friday, Saturday & Sunday? Hahaha.. We've got till May to play around.. I love you! *hugz&kissez*

P/S:After somebody jealous then how? Hehe.. *winks*

As I walked into the building, everything seemed so familiar to me. The flashbacks came. I remembered. Fear gripped my heart. It was all coming back to me. Every step I took, it became clearer and clearer. I was there once again. Younger in age, walking down that same hallway. The memories that I wanted to erase permanently, all came flooding back into my mind. At that age, I just blocked out reality from my mind. Pretending it'll all go away if I don't think about it. I was okay from the outside, but on the inside, I was crumbling to pieces. I was hurting so bad. I kept it all inside. It was too painful to bear the truth. Nobody knew what was happening. It was my deepest darkest secret. I could not cry. I had to remain strong.

Oh god. All I wanted to was to let it all out to someone and cry on his/her shoulder. But I couldn't. Pride and circumstances prevented me from doing so. I couldn't even come to terms to what was happening. It must be a dream. If only I could just wake up from it. Snap! And everything will be back to normal. The thought of even losing that person I loved so much terrified me. Until this day, I sometimes think what if....

It was so real. It nearly happened. By the grace of God, it didn't happen. But the scar still remains. Those who have known me for very long, won't even know what I'm writing about. Nobody knows. I don't open up easily. I don't trust people easily. I don't like getting hurt. It's a self-protecting mechanism in-built in me. What you see from the outside, at times is not who I am in the inside. I'd rather keep everything inside of me. To reveal, would mean putting myself vulnerable to others. My soul would be bare. I would be exposed. Open and ready for anything to devour me. Hurt would be inevitable. Pieces of my heart torn out. Who would mend it? Who would comfort me?

Its been a very long time indeed since I've cried. Tears in my mind was a sign of weakness. I've been so good at hiding my emotions till crying is just not a part of me. I may be hurting inside but I can't let it out. Only being in the presence of God can break all the walls inside of me and bring me down to tears. To be able to cry, to me is a privilege. Weird, but true.

As I came to the end of the hallway, I heaved a sense of relief. I realized it happened a long time ago. I've got to let go. I was there for a different purpose now. It was all just in my mind.

I dreamt about it again the other day. I woke up in a daze. It felt as if it had just happened yesterday. Scary it was. But that was my past. Not my future. I've broken my ties with it.

For the first time coincidentally, I actually shared this with someone whom I've come to completely trust over this period of time. Amazing how God works. Just when I thought I'll never be able to trust anybody fully, He teaches me how to. I know that people that I love will disappoint me. But He never will.

I miss high school.. *sigh* I miss my friends the most. After being with them for 5 years straight, separating was hard. I was the only one who went to UCSI while all of them went to Taylors. *blek* What to do, I wanted to do music. Haha.. Eventhough we still lived at the same places, exams and different breaks prevented all of us to see each other frequently. *double sigh* However, thanks to technology, the internet especially MSN was an essential tool to keep in constant contact. Hehe.. =)

Well, a trip down memory lane..

5 Science Amanah 2004 [greatest class ever..]

PBSA 2004 [we rocked.. haha..]

aishah, me, krystal [prefects meeting.. =p]

me, swarna, yuyee, karmun, yiping, evonne, lena, laila

dhashaini, krys, me, swarna [prize giving day..]

our favourite physics teacher, pn. loo! hehe.. [last day of school.. *sob sob*]

aminda, krystal, liy k, me, swarna [prefects' camp 2004.. my first and last.. *lol*]

me & dhash [Fantasia Sri Aman 2004]

dhash, me, kalyn, sookping, yvonne, karmun, swarna, krystal [chillis 1utama.. my 17th b'day=)]

dhash, me, krys, swarna [cherished every moment we spent together.. *hugz*]

remember when we did this?? hahaha.. that night was awesome..

Some of our meet-ups last year and this year too..

deepavali '05 [swarna's house..]

TGIF 1Utama [she's one hot chica.. *muacksz*]

hari raya '05 [Laila's house.. it was really good seeing them again.. *smiles*]

jovina, erin, me, swarna [5SA's Reunion Feb '06 in TGIF SS14..]

erin, suling, jo, yuyee, swarna, shal, farah, me [gosh.. i love this people..]

5 SA was truly the best.. i miss the good ol' days.. *sigh*

sri aman's babes.. haha ;)

SA + BB

kajen, swarna, me, tzemeng

Sweet memories right? Hehe.. Too many photos to put up. Well, will never regret knowing you darlings. Because of all of you, my life was filled with many colours :)

P/S : Viva la Sri Aman! Sri Amanians for life.. xoxoxo

Once upon a time, I thought I had everything planned out. My whole master plan for my life, that seemed so perfect. All I had to do was just to follow through and complete it. Then I would achieve everything that I wanted - success, wealth, fame. I thought that was it; that I had finally came to a conclusion of what I wanted in life.

But then, suddenly something I would have never expected happened in my life! Out of no where, someone came into my life and became so important. It hit me like a bullet, through and through. His love for me was unconditional. He showed me care and concern that nobody could ever show me. I was baffled. I had never experienced such a thing before. Everyday I began to know Him more and more. The more time I spent with Him, the more I wanted to be with Him. He stole my heart away. I couldn't get enough of Him. Perfect in every way. Eventhough I've broken His heart countless of times, He forgave me every time. I was awed by His compassion and grace. How could He forgive me everytime, eventhough I've hurt Him so badly? Wasn't there any resentment, anger or bitterness? But He was different, all this feelings were never apart of Him. All He could show was love towards me. He was my place of refuge; my strongtower. He was the one I turned to when the whole world was falling around me. He never disappointed me. When I needed Him, He was always there. Ever-ready with open arms, to receive me. Every now and then, I just rest in His loving arms. Knowing that no harm could ever come near me, because He was my protector. He gave me peace that the world cannot comprehend. I was totally taken in by Him. All I wanted to do, was be with Him; having that intimacy. For the first time in my life, I felt absolute bliss and contentment. I had satisfaction. Never in my life, had I been so in peace with everything. Everything else just didn't matter anymore. He became the centre of my life. My number one priority. Truly everything else didn't matter. The whole world I've been living in for all these years seemed so meaningless. I had found true happiness. More importantly, I had found the purpose for my life.

However, my whole life master plan had been totally shattered to pieces. My once so picture perfect life, wasn't so perfect after all. I was chasing temporary treasures on earth. I was so taken in by what the world could offer me. Nothing eternal, but temporary pleasures. The temptations were many, everything looked so wonderful from the outside. But then, I stopped and asked myself one day. Was this all I wanted in life? What was my purpose being here on this earth? I had an emptiness inside of me; a longing; an empty void. I couldn't put my finger to as what was missing. From the outside perspective, I had everything I could ever need. I lacked nothing. Material abundance couldn't satisfy this. Nothing could. I was at a dead end. My mind, soul and body was so disturb and not at peace. One day, I stumbled upon this letter.

Don't ask me why I started this, cause I don't even know. I know this is so not me, but then.. Haha.. (I can hear you laughing Swarna & Dhash!)

Well, so many things have been happening in my "oh-so-exciting" life. Hehe.. First things first, the most important event that recently happened was, the *drum rollsss* WORSHIP RALLY : ENCOUNTER WITH GOD in Grace PJ, on April Fools' Day. It was awesome! God is so great and His faithfulness endures forever! All the weeks of practicing, trying each others patience, fevently praying, goofing around and anticipating paid off at last. Up till the very last second, every moment was savoured through and through. I didn't want the night to end though, it went by so fast. The memories I shared with the guys are unforgettable, probably some that will scar me for the rest of my life! The amount of teasing & torture I had to go through. *blek* Haha.. Well, what can I say, I still love them. *choking myself* =p

Knowing me and the obsession I have with taking photos, I have a ton a pictures to put up. It'll show the journey we went through and the times we spent together =)







in the beginning there was five..
[kevin, emmanuel, me, george, daniel]

the gorgeous backdrop..

presenting G4C + official hairstylist.. *lol*

[Grace for Christ]

future stuntmans wanna-bees? *teehee*

posers in action..

what we do best.. POSING!

missing you dearies.. *hugz*

[yinyee & christy]

Definitely an amazing night to remember! All glory to the Heavenly Father; who was and is and is to come. God is the same yesterday, today and forever. His love endures forever. Well, a whole album full of bittersweet memories to reminisce back on:) Too many to even begin to list down..

Only the beginning to the journey ahead with God as our guide... *smiles*

fe.li.ci.ty.li.cious
The rants and rambles of my life. The ups and downs of the journey i go through. The joys and tears of it all. The best part, the bittersweet memories left engraved in my heart.


My passion is MUSIC! I serve an awesome God. I'm individualistic, enjoys sacarsm and has a good sense of humour. I'm also a loyal supporter of Manchester United. *grins* Loves shopping sprees, obsessed with taking photos, has late night ice-cream cravings, has an addiction to chocolates, a book enthusiast, despises horror movies, takes pleasure in spending quality time with my friends, enjoys partying, and simply married to my handphone. Haha.. Go figure! *winks* ;)





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