I went shopping yesterday! Hehe.. A real massive shopping spree! Okay, I won't list down the items I bought cause then I'll sound like some shopaholic maniac. Haha.. Anyway, I'm entitled to it, since I haven't really shopped this year....
Thank you Swarna for yesterday! I'll be waiting ever so patiently for you to get out of your phases! But please hurry yea.. I would like you normal again. *winks*
Well, had a very interesting conversation with someone about colours last night. More like ironic.. I mean, since when does it matter what colour you wear?? The underlying meaning to it?? Hmmmmm.. People are weird! *teehee*
Gonna be a very busyyyy weekend. Lots to plan, lots to do, lots to endure, lots to lose. Haha.. Hopefully I'll survive through it all. *praying very hard*
p/s to the person concern: we'll see if things will change.. but i'm so gonna prove my point!
hugs&kisses
Y8:54 PM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
I just have to blog about this. Hahahaha! I'm so happy now.. Because I just made the discovery of the century last night! Through my midst of being emo and all that rubbish, someone manage to give me a happy thought. A thought where I can just burst out laughing and smiling again through any circumstance. Oh god.. I still can't stop laughing at the irony here. It's simply killing me. Hehe..
You see, all along I thought I was alone in one of life's unexplainable dilemma of human emotions... But then, I found out someone here also is going through the same thing BUT just NEVER bothered to tell me about it. (i'm still gonna kill you over that!) Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! You seriously don't know how much you made my day.. Aahhhhh... Finally it happened! So now, I shall bestow upon you the title"Princess of Denial"! *teehee* I'm still the Queen of Denial.. No matter what, you can't beat me in that!
So welcome to Denial Land. The place where reality doesn't some what exist. Nice to have you for a neighbour! We found another thing in common.. You are still gonna pay for pretending all this while... *blek*
Looks like we're even now. Dirt on both sides... It's gonna get nasty! Haha.. *winks* But you're still my one and only *****!
hugs&kisses
Y4:46 PM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Don't say you care, when you never show it. Don't say you love me, when you don't mean it. Don't say you'll be there for me, when you're not. Don't say you'll hold my hand through everything, when I don't even see your shadow. Don't say you'll wait for me until the end, when you can just turn wherever the wind blows you too.
When everything falls apart, you're never here for me. And I hate you for that.
*In my darkest hour, you were bloody hell NOT here when I needed you. I guess that shows just how much I mean to you! I've had enough. Just simply enough. This is the end. Please let me go..*
hugs&kisses
Y10:17 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Here's a special post just for the person who was so kind enough to help me change and design my new blog skin! Simply awesomeee PINK! *smiles*
THANK YOU SO MUCH CYBERPUNK!!!!
Okay, now I finally declare that you're NICE! Hehe.. *winks*
Well, thank you for putting up with my noob-ness in IT knowledge! Haha..
p/s: I'm only a BIT blind at times.. *blek*
hugs&kisses
Y9:56 PM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
It's funny how some people can hurt you so badly, but you still love them back no matter what. It's funny how things don't turn out the way you planned it, but even more beautifully. It's funny how the last person you'll ever expect to talk to, is the first person God brings into your life to comfort you when things are all falling apart. It's funny how we can have everything the world could offer, just to realize that it's all so utterly meaningless. It's funny how when you thought something that would last forever, abruptly ends right in your face. It's funny how a minute decision can alter history forever. It's funny how you can never bring yourself to say 'I Love You' when you mean it the most. It's funny how you want to hope, but have no courage to take to risk. It's funny how you can build up layers and layers of walls to protect yourself, when all you want is someone to come and tear them down. It's funny how you only appreciate something, when you lose it. It's funny how even after the worst storms, there's always a rainbow waiting at the end.
*the ironies of life..*
hugs&kisses
Y3:00 AM
I'm so good at it, I might be losing myself along the way. I'm so good at it, I scare myself at times. I'm so good at it, I don't even realize it anymore. I'm so good at it, till it comes naturally now. I'm so good at it, that I'm afraid....
The world's a stage. And we are all just actors in it. How well you do in life, depends on how well you can act. All the facades and masks that we put on...
*if i can just bare all..*
hugs&kisses
Y2:28 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
If you are featured in this video, it's NOT my fault. If you want to kill the maker of this video, by all means you can:) Hahaha.. Well, enjoy it!
***Double click the screen to view it in FULL***
hugs&kisses
Y11:10 PM
Monday, May 14, 2007
My timetable for this semester is so screwed. No morning classes but everything is in the evening! Urrrghhh. Very extremely boring subjects this time round. Sigh.. But I still can't get over the fact that I'm gonna be graduating next year! Goodness.. It's all happening way too fast! I'll already be in my final year next semester just as I turn 20.
Finally happier things are starting to happen now. Aahhhh.. Just 2 more months only. I just have to wait it out for another 2 months.. Then, happiness! I get to get rid of somethings permanently out of my life. I've had enough with the thorns in my flesh. Freedom:) Painful, but it has to be done. Not going to have second thoughts about it anymore. It's better to protect then to regret later.
Being going through a crazy roller-coaster ride lately. All the emotions and feelings.. Arrghh. Can really drive me insane at times. Sometimes, I feel like I'm going to implode rather than explode. Cause I usually don't explode anyway. All the things that I've buried six feet under in the past decided to resurface due to some unforeseen incident. Which was also a blessing in disguise.. I just found out that there is something worse than hate. And I develop a disliking to ALL four letter words. Every single one of them.. If you're smart, you'll know which ones. I just wish it was possible to be able to stop thinking. Just for a moment. My mind works overtime these days.. Go figure why.
There's this upcoming jazz festival in Genting!!! Haha.. Something for me to look forward to! Hope everything works out okay then me and a few friends will be spending a whole weekend up there. Getting a mini-holiday:) So happy! Weeeeeee... I seriously need a break from everything and everyone! My holidays wasn't even my holidays. Was just busy busy busy busyyyyyy... Then it was time to start uni again.
Here are just a few random pictures.. My blog lack pictures for once..
*sometimes I just wish I can hope..*
hugs&kisses
Y10:23 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
To quote somebody the other day...
"A heart of stone is a heart of sense."
Hehe..
*only 2 more months till happiness. the countdown begins.*
hugs&kisses
Y11:20 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Failure. Pure failure.
I've failed to prove something to even myself. I've failed way far from the standards. Just not good enough. Not good enough. Failed. I've failed.
p/s: Chuan Li, Su Mei & Daniel: Thank you for the messages and support... But it'll take me some time to get over it. I thought it was all going to be okay. But I guess not.
hugs&kisses
Y7:22 PM
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Series of events have happened during this 2 weeks of holidays. A lot got me reflecting, thinking and eventually making some critical decisions in my life.
Having a conversation with a friend yesterday night, got me thinking some more. I'm wayyy more complicated than I even know. Haha.. I told her this, I don't believe in letting history repeat itself. I don't believe that certain things should go the same way again or taking the same risks again. I believe that, once it's over, it's over for good. No going down the same path again.
But then, she said this in reply to me. "If history doesn't repeat itself in certain things, then what happens to second chances? What happens to the word HOPE?"
I couldn't answer her. All I said was, "I don't believe in second chances. Why do you want to hope for something that has no guarantee of happening?" Then I said the stupidest thing ever - "You should only hope when you know the ending for sure."
My ever-so-patient friend then said, "Then that's not hope anymore. Hope is something you want to believe will happen without having any guarantee whatsoever. Taking the risk, the chance. Something like faith."
I can't continue this post.. It's not a part of me that I want to share. I'll just leave it as that.
hugs&kisses
Y3:09 PM
happy being loved:)
the drama queen
fe.li.ci.ty.li.cious The rants and rambles of my life. The ups and downs of the journey i go through. The joys and tears of it all. The best part, the bittersweet memories left engraved in my heart.
pieces of me
My passion is MUSIC! I serve an awesome God. I'm individualistic, enjoys sacarsm and has a good sense of humour. I'm also a loyal supporter of Manchester United. *grins*
Loves shopping sprees, obsessed with taking photos, has late night ice-cream cravings, has an addiction to chocolates, a book enthusiast, despises horror movies, takes pleasure in spending quality time with my friends, enjoys partying, and simply married to my handphone. Haha.. Go figure! *winks* ;)
