CYBERPUNKKKKKKKK!

Stop smacking me! And you don't know everything about me! Ya ya, you're DANGEROUS! I'm sooooooooo scared! *rolls eyes* Hehehehe.. And i'm NOT living in denial. Eeeeeeeeeeeee! Okay, maybe a lil.. *blek* But the rest of the things you said are totally UNTRUE! Haha.. Go and study hard NOW! Stop making funny equations about me! I'm not flying. And I'm NOT on cloud nine. Hehehehehehe=p Oh ya, stop spying on me also.. *evil grin*

His quote of the day to me:
"You cannot bluff me eventhough you bluff me."

What an ironic statement! Haha.. Anyways, youuuuuuuuu better stop calling me all those names! *blek*

But thanks for listening to my crap all this time..=)

p/s: stop fishing so much! (u know what i'm talking about.. hehehe..)

Gah.. Didn't go to uni today AGAIN. My poor tummy.. *sobs* It's been so long since I've had the gastric attacks. Went to the clinic today, and guess what my doctor said? "Long time haven't seen you.." Haha.. Well, my tummy has been acting up again and its even worse now. Arrgghh. Two freaking days of pangs and pain. *SOBSSSS*

This is what I'm NOT allowed to eat from now onwards. No oily or spicy food, no bread or things that contain yeast and NO MOONCAKE. Eeeeeeee! The Lantern/Mooncake Festival is next week and I can't eat mooncake. Basically all I'm allowed to eat is PORRIDGE. That's all. Just PORRIDGE. Did I mention that I just hate to eat porridge? *yucks* But that's what I'll be eating for the next couple of days. Well, till my tummy gets better I have to abide to the eating instructions given to me. Also have pills I have to take round-the-clock.. I really hope I remember to take them on time, because I usually forget to take them. Hehe..

Okay, I'm gonna stop blogging now. My tummy hurts..=(

I just read Su Ling's blog. This post goes out to her.

I'm so so so so sorry about Gigi..=( I know it sucks even more that you're so far away from home. I hope that everything is okay with you.. Really really pray that you'll cheer up soon and not be sad anymore.. I love you:)

Excerpts from her September 15th post :
"whenever you love something or someone so much and get so used to them being around, their presence just makes everything 'normal'...and when they're gone you feel lost and helpless.. helpless that you could not do anything to change the circumstances..."


Grief. Sadness. Hurt. I sure know how it feels like to lose someone or something that you love so much.. And the feeling of being so lost and helpless. Sigh.. Who or what do you turn to in times like these? Family? Friends? Material items? All I can say for me is, that wasn't enough. None of the pity, kind words, advice, comfort or compassion I received from everyone was enough for me. Keeping myself busy also kept the thoughts out of head only temporarily. Along came the nights when I would toss and turn, where the memories would come and haunt me and I would fail to get my rest.

Sometimes you try to be denial to forget the hurt and avoid the grief, but the truth is that its all still there. No matter how hard you try to pretend or forget. I tried everything. Nothing worked. No person could make me feel better. There was nothing in this world I could buy, to heal the hurt inside of me. You may only find temporary pleasures or things to keep your mind off it for awhile, but nothing that can take it away permanently.

There was only ONE thing left for me to do. God. Its funny how the first thing you're suppose to do, you do it the last. Well, I turned to God. I cried out to Him. And amazingly, it all went away. He healed all my hurts. He dried up all my tears. He mended my broken heart. He took away my helplessness and the feeling of being lost. He turned my sorrow into joy. He was my comforter, healer and friend. If it wasn't for God, I really don't know where I'll end up today. Maybe I'll still be in the broken state I was in; being lost; helpless and not knowing what it feels like to be whole and complete once more. I would never had experienced the peace of God which the world can never comprehend...


"I will never leave you nor forsake you." (Hebrews 13:5)

The phrase, "What are the odds of...." can never be applied to me. Seriously, the most ironic things tend to happen to me at the weirdest times ever. And now, I'm seemingly going through flash backs of the past which are bringing back some really absurd memories. I think I just confused myself with that statement. Haha.. For the very first time, I can't seem to be able to express myself! This is so rare! Let me just put it this way, anything is possible at this point in time. And I'm finding certain things so surreal and ironic that I can't really believe it's happening. It's unexplainable. Somehow I feel as if that, its all a dream and that I would wake up the next moment to find everything is not true. Maybe there's a candid camera somewhere, and it's all just a joke. Okay, now I'm beginning to sound absurd myself. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

[introducing darth bass & cyberpunk!]

[future models in the making?? *teehee]

p/s: kindly please let me know when the sky has turned PINK:)

hugs&kisses
Y8:38 PM

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

I have so many things to blog about. But I'm so SHORT of time! This semester is CRAZYY!! It's like always trying to run after time. Sheessshhhh! I've decided to now take this short 20 minute break before I really go insane with work.

It's been such a wonderful week. Something like a blast from the past? *smiles* Been spending a lot of time with my family:) Well, that equals to having talk sessions with my parents; my mummy in particular. Which sometimes can either be a good thing or the worst thing ever! Hehe.. Anyway, this time round was good but so ironic.. The usual was talked about - my studies and future etc.. Then, the topic of boyfriends came up. HAHAHAHAHAHA! It seems strange to my mummy that I actually like don't have a boyfriend now... *grins* But then of course, she didn't really believe me when I told her no. I wonder why.. Hehe.. Maybe because I should have turned out just like my sister who started pretty young.. *winks* This was what my mummy said the guy I date/marry must be - Christian and God-fearing, taller than me (hehehehe..), able to provide, yadayadayada... And of course to put God first in everything. Well, all my relatives especially my grandmother also could not believe that I don't have a boyfriend yet. When I went back to Kuantan about a month ago for a family celebration dinner, the question and answer sessions I had to go through were simply crazy! And of course nobody believed anything I said. I don't know why I bothered answering most of the times.. They had more fun assuming and speculating. Haha.. My grandmother also put forth her desire to see me married as soon as possible. When I pointed out the fact that I was only 20 years old, she in turn said that she got married to my grandfather when she was 15 years old! Aiyohhh! *teehee*

Okay, for those of you who knows my past, should just shut up and say nothing at all. Do not try to leave any "smart" comments in my chatterbox! Somethings are better left unsaid.. Hehe.. *blek*

Things I promised my mummy and daddy that I'll try my very very best to do :-

1. No more late nights. Get my 8 hours of sleep.

2. Stop using my handphone so much. Less phone calls and to bring my bill down.

3. Stop being lazy and practice my piano MOREEE.

4. No more mindless surfing on the net and chatting.

5. Graduate top of my class next year.

6. Cut down shopping.

7. Let them knoww when I actually am in a relationship... Hahaha..

All the first 6 things will be super hard to do! I just find No.7 funny and ironic.. Hehe.. Parents sometimes cannot be explained. They say things that will shock you the most. But I still love them no matter what:)

These are the people who have made me who I am today. Everything I am, I owe it to them. For their love, care, support and trust.

[Eastin. August 2007.]

[Christmas. December 2006]

[Chinese New Year. February 2007]

The 5 Essentials..
I got tagged by madam Meenalochani.. So here it goes!



5 things found in my bag:
- Handphone (can't live without my phone..)
- Purse/Wrislet
- Packet tissues
- Comb
- Pills! (don't ask me for what.. hehe..)


5 favourite things in my room:
- My wardrobe filled with all my clothes
- All my soft cute huggable toys! They have a special corner in my room:)
- My collection of books
- My extensive assortment of jewelry
- The photos of the people I love all over my room


5 things I've always wanted to do:
- Travel the world with my two besties! (Greece in 2 years right??)
- Eat my heart out and not worry about putting on weight!!
- Perform all around the world:)
- Watch the sunset and sunrise on the beach with ..........
- Scream my lungs out on top of a mountain!


5 things I'm currently into:
- Facebook (found this new toy to play with.. hehe..)
- Grey's Anatomy (seriously super emo series!)
- Rainbowssssssss!
- Tiffany & Co. (I'm still waiting and hoping for someone to make my wish come true and get this for me! hehe..)
- My entertainment=p



I'm going to tag:
- Su Ling
- Erin
- Janielle
- Dominic
- Cyberpunk! (Please go and REVIVE your blog!!)

Dear Anonymous,

It's been so long since I've last talked to you. I can't even recall our last conversation or what we talked about. It's been weird. A weird long period of time.. It's funny cause you used to be such a big part of my life in the past. But I guess, the past is the past. I still have no regrets though. I hope you don't as well. Funny how you still pop into my mind from time to time eventhough it has been so long. Certain things I see, certain things people say, certain phrases or words just triggers a thought about you. Sometimes I would just laugh out loud or smile:) I still remember all the times we've shared together. Just realised I spent quite a lot of time with you. You would make me laugh for no apparent reason with your sillyness, the endless conversations we've had talking about practically everything under the sun or the sweet surprises you would give me.

People say I make things complicated. Hehe.. But nothing remains forever. Sigh. The only regret I have is that I lost you as a friend. I lost someone whom I could count on at anytime of day. I lost someone whom I could call just out of randomness to talk to anywhere anytime. I lost someone who was once very close to my heart and special in my life. I lost you. We can go on arguing about who's fault it was and all until eternity comes... But nothing really matters now does it? It just irks me that you will never stand up and fight for what you want. But I guess I just wasn't part of it was I? I can never live up to certain things you expect of me, nor can you. We've both failed there. Is it still all ego and pride that has led to this?

Anyway, I just want you to know that I cherish every single moment that I've had with you. Even all the fights! Nobody has ever provoked me or pissed me off like you ever did! Boy, did you bring anger greater heights. Haha.. Well, it's certainly filled with plenty of bittersweet memories.. But I'm choosing only to remember the sweet ones. As our paths both go a different way, I wish you all the best things in life filled with God's blessings. You have a great destiny ahead of you, don't lose sight of it. All it takes is faith in God. And lots of prayer too:)

On this date, 3rd September 2007, all I'm trying to say is that I miss you. In fact, I miss you a lot.. I miss having you in my life. And I hate it that we don't talk anymore. Actually, I hate myself even more for missing you. It's just one of my mood swings. Oh well, it'll pass like any other.. I know I'm complicated and contradictory. You don't have to tell me that anymore.

Yeah, I miss you. But somethings will never be said.. You're just a stranger I happen to know now..

With love,
sunshine


p/s: i know that u read my blog. so yea, ur secret's out. u don't have to keep on checking up on me u know.. there's always the asking method.

After many manyyy months of planning and postponing, we finally manage to do it! Hehe.. Can't believe how hard it was just to get our dates free.. But oh well, it was definitely worth the wait rite? *winks* From breakfast in bangsar, shopping in telawi and midvalley, sushi for lunch/tea to dinner in KL! I seriously need to start losing weight again AFTER you go back Dhash! I've been eating non-stop with you guys! Eeeekkks. The day was filled with a myriad of interesting topics of conversation.. Hehehehehe.. But shopping was so depressing though! For the first time, there was nothing to buy! Oh well, we made up for it by eatinggg and talking till we were almost late for dinner! Haha..

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The rants and rambles of my life. The ups and downs of the journey i go through. The joys and tears of it all. The best part, the bittersweet memories left engraved in my heart.


My passion is MUSIC! I serve an awesome God. I'm individualistic, enjoys sacarsm and has a good sense of humour. I'm also a loyal supporter of Manchester United. *grins* Loves shopping sprees, obsessed with taking photos, has late night ice-cream cravings, has an addiction to chocolates, a book enthusiast, despises horror movies, takes pleasure in spending quality time with my friends, enjoys partying, and simply married to my handphone. Haha.. Go figure! *winks* ;)





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