It's been totally crazy. I just have to endure a few more weeks than it'll ALL be OVER! Then I'm going to take a long longggggggg break from everything. Stress can really kill someone or take them to the brink of insanity!
I have been so on the edge lately that some of my recent decisions might have been done not in the right judgement. Someone said that when I'm extremely stressed I do stupid things and I have the "laughter" and my voice goes funny. Anyhow, I'm still sane.
It's funny how something so small done out of a blue can make you smile. It's one of those days, when you get a little surprise that brightens up your day. It's not exactly random yet random (yes, i know i'm very contradictory..), but then it just makes you smile and laugh out loud:) For me, it was the text messages I received from someone today.
On another random note, someone has returned from the U.S. today! There goes the peace in Malaysia for the next two months.. Hahaha..
p/s: the number of pills i take is equivalent to the number of hours you sleep in a night..
hugs&kisses
Y11:39 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Last night I went for this! And it was simply breath-taking. I've been to countless of concert performances and recitals before, but this was different. Very rarely you get a chance to experience a performance that actually leaves a mark. And this definitely did!
I'm soo glad that I went for it eventhough I was dead tired. Totally worth it! And the best part, I got a free ticket:)
Because it was a charity night organized to raise funds for Hospis Malaysia, there was a slide presentation at the beginning about them. And at the end of the slide presentation, there was this quote which totally caught my attention - 'Death is more universal than life. Everyone dies, but not everyone lives.'
p/s: hanging on by a thread.. isaiah 41.
hugs&kisses
Y9:55 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Recital over. Phew! Totally not satisfied. But still happy all the same..
Sometimes I think the hardest standards to live up to are your own.
Anyway, the besties came and watched my performance:) Finally, they're able to watch me perform at least once! Hehe.. You girls totally rock my world! Thank you for coming all the wayyy.. Love both of you loads! No pictures from today strangely. Because I was FORBIDDEN to take pictures during the outing after that. The excuse was, 'Today is not a good picture day!'. Haha.. No more excuses next time!
[finally reunited again:) and after all these years, nothing has changed! stuck together for life.]
p/s: u remembered.. *smiles*
hugs&kisses
Y10:13 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Something that I just received in my email that caught my eye..
I AM
I was regretting the past and fearing the future When suddenly the Lord spoke: My name is I am
I waited as he breathe these words: When you live in the past, it is hard because I AM not there, My name is not I WAS
When you live in the future, it is hard because I AM not there. My name is not I WILL BE
When you relish the present moment, it is not hard, because I AM here. And my name is I AM
Remember Panda Kung Fu?
The past is history The future is a mystery But the moment now is a gift That's why it is called the present:)
-Ps. John Beh-
So simple and short but yet it hits straight home.. And this reminder comes right in time for me. God has mysterious ways of getting your attention.
Recital in four days time. Funny thing is that, although I'm totally stressed out about all my work, I'm still at perfect peace. Perfect peace that transcends all understanding. Yes this is my concerto recital and my final semester, yet for the first time I'm not exactly worried. I bet the nervousness and butterflies in my tummy will come during the moment before I get onto stage to perform, but then I'm still at peace. With everything that is happening all around me, its amazing how at peace I can feel. THAT IS GOD'S wonderful PEACE. The whole world could collapse right now around me, and I'll still be at peace:) Nothing in this world can take that away from me. God's peace. You have to experience it to understand what it's like. And I guarantee you, once you do, you'll want nothing else. By God's grace, I'm still sane at this point of time. If not........ Haha..
I also want to thank all the beautiful and awesome people in my life right now! I know I haven't exactly been such a great person to talk to.. Well, it's been crazy alright:) Thank you for listening to all my rantings, complains, DRAMA etc.. I'll make it up to everyone once I'm not so crazy.. Hehe..
So yups, my recital is this Thursday (10th July 2008) at 1pm in the UCSI Recital Hall. I'll be performing Prokofiev's Piano Concerto No.3 in C major, Op.26, 1st movement. Yeah I know I must been mad to have chosen this piece.. Well, do come if you're free:)
Okay, that's it for now. Time to slave away at the piano again..
p/s: no more drama.. time to accept what is staring me right in the face.. *smiles*
hugs&kisses
Y11:13 PM
happy being loved:)
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My passion is MUSIC! I serve an awesome God. I'm individualistic, enjoys sacarsm and has a good sense of humour. I'm also a loyal supporter of Manchester United. *grins*
Loves shopping sprees, obsessed with taking photos, has late night ice-cream cravings, has an addiction to chocolates, a book enthusiast, despises horror movies, takes pleasure in spending quality time with my friends, enjoys partying, and simply married to my handphone. Haha.. Go figure! *winks* ;)
